sigh...

Ok, so, of course my weight fluctuates.. so, for the week, I lost 3 lbs.  I'm at 259.4 today...  but that's ok.  I can deal w/ 3 lbs a week!  As long as the number is going down, that's all I care about.  Maybe I'll hit 50 lbs lost next week... probably not (will be in Dallas all weekend.) but that's ok.  I hope I win the biggest loser, but I doubt it...  I've only lost 15 lbs.  I'm sure others have lost more!

*fingers crossed*

:)

I'm loving this scale going down every day!  I'm at 258.8 today....  On Monday, I was 262.4...  lets see how much more I can lose.

I'm officially down 45 lbs from starting Atkins last year.  I wonder if I can hit the 50 lb mark this week?

But I'm so happy that to see that I'm under 260!

48.8 lbs til my goal of being half the woman I was the last time around!

Step by step

I'm at 260.4 today.  I'm .4 lbs from being under 260!  I'm so excited about that.  I've got 6.4 lbs until I've lost 50 lbs!  The scale is consistently going down, as long as I really pay attention to what I eat.  I watch my sodium intake, I eat my protein, and I eat my fat.  I try to keep my carb count as low as possible, but I don't count them.  I stress out when I count them.  Another key to my weightloss is not stressing out.  I might actually start swimming next week, when the pool opens up.  I've noticed that when I work out, it can slow my weight loss....  that makes me nervous.

Next Thursday, we're going to Dallas for A-Kon.  We'll be in Dallas all weekend.  Luckily, because it's just Elvis and I, it won't be too difficult to plan food that won't mess me up.  In just a few weeks, we'll be going to Mexico... I won't have as much control there, and I'm worried about that.

I'm happy about the loss I've already had, but When I remember how much I've still got to go I get overwhelmed.  I've got 50.4 lbs to go to my goal of being half the person I was at my last wedding.

Day 3, losing for the wedding

7 lbs in 3 days!  I got on this morning, praying for 262.  Well, Imagine my surprise when it said 261.8!!!  I'm so stoked!  I need to win this biggest loser.  We could certainly use the 1300 dollars for our wedding!  According to work's scale, I've lost 13 lbs from their starting weight.  That's 4.6% so far.  I need for my loss to continue.  I can't slack off, even a minute.  We are going to Austin and San Antonio this weekend.  I'm bringing fat bombs with me.  I'm also bringing food with me to San Antonio.  We're going to a water park.  I'm brining lettuce wraps and fat bombs.  Im brining my coconut oil with me every where.  Fat may be the key to me losing weight.  Making sure I eat enough of it every day... that is key!

51.8 lbs left to my goal of being half the person I used to be!!!

Quick diet news...

So I started this week on Monday , weighing in at 268.8 (yea, I keep gaining those same 5 lbs...  grrr).  This morning, I weighed in at 263.6.  That's 5.2 lbs in 2 days!!  I can totally get behind that kind of weight loss!  :)  I've been limiting my cheese.  Infact, the only time I eat it is in the morning, on my eggs.  I've also really upped my fat intake.  I have coconut oil in my coffee and usually that would be the extent of my fat intake for the day.  Now I'm having 2 fat bombs every day as well.  That's usually my lunch.  Maybe I'll see 259 this weekend?  Wouldn't that be swell!!

At my last wedding, I weighed in at 420 lbs and wore a size 32 dress.  I could barely move at all.  I was severely swollen and puffy. I want to be at least half of the girl I was then.  That means I have 53.6 lbs to lose.  I'd also like to be in a size 16 or less.  I can't wait to go dress shopping, but it won't happen til later this year.  No use in buying a dress that I can't fit into, or won't by the time the wedding is here!

I'm so happy.... so  so so happy... :)

SO incredibly happy!

So yesterday I got to share my news with the people I work with yesterday.  I got to grin - from ear to ear - for hours.  I got to talk about my incredible fiancé (I wonder when I'll get used to saying that) and how he asked me to be his wife.  I'm still super emotional and excited and happy.  I've bought several wedding magazines to help us with ideas.

I love the fact that he's excited too.  I sent a few places that i liked to him and he looked over them (really looked) and shared his true feelings.  I valued them so much.  I have a feeling this is going to be such a fun wedding to plan!

It will be a mesh of Latino and Texan.  Think papel picados and cowboy boots.  Think Texas wild flowers.  Think country.  Think romantic love.  You'll have an idea of what's in our vision.  One of the best things about it is that he has the same vision as me.  :)

On diet news, I went back on my diet yesterday.  I lost 2. 4 lbs yesterday.  But that's all weight that I gained over the weekend.  I can't stop this time.  I have to keep going.  I have a dress to fit into!

I haven't told the girls I'm thinking of asking yet.  I mean, Angie knows.  She's been my best friend since high school!  There's no way I couldn't ask her to be my maid of honor.  I'm going to ask Jazmin, Shelley and Tammy.   I met Jazmin through my ex-husband.  He worked with her and eventually dated her.  Oddly enough, we've become best friends.  I also met Shelley through my ex-husband.  She worked with him in another division.  Her entire family is such a blessing to us.  Her husband is going to officiate our ceremony and her daughters are going to play ceremony music.  For Elvis, His best friend will be his best man.  I think he is also asking Curtis and Stephen.  I'm not sure of the last person.  He's mentioned Nick, and some others.  As far as a flower girl and a ring bearer, if my sister can come, Zoe will be the flower girl and Zachary and Noah will be our ring bearers.

I'm so excited...  I could talk about this forever!

Finally, It happened!!!

When I started this blog, there were a few wishes I had for it...  1) Lose weight 2) Get Married and 3) Have a baby.  Well, I'm on my way to losing weight and after yesterday, I'm engaged!!!  :)  I'm so happy that I have barely been able to sleep!

Unfortunately for me, I went off my diet this weekend, and it caused me to gain... (not to mention the dreaded TOM), so I'm back at where I was a couple of weeks ago.  The next time I cheat will be when I'm in Mexico, and can't get around it.  I'll be sending a case of protein shakes down with Elvis's family though.  That way I can have a little bit of something I know.  :)

I'm super excited about our engagement!  :)  I'm sure you'll see alot about wedding plans, ideas and such over the coming months.  We plan to get married on April 13, 2013.  :)

<3

A trip

So we went to Orlando this weekend to visit my mom.  I'm happy to say that even in a place with MANY of my favorite foods, I stayed completely on plan!

Yesterday was my first day back to work, and I increased my fats by alot.  I had 3 fat bombs thru out the day, in addition to my coffee!

The scale finally showed me a number I'm happy with because of it... 263.4!  Under the dreaded 264 that has been haunting me for so long...  I haven't been to the gym this week... I'm working on Elvis's anniversary gift and that is taking up all of my spare time.  That's ok though, I needed a rest!

Anyways....  gotta go grocery shopping...  Time to start my day!  :)